Vous êtes très frais

I don't want to wake up in the morning anymore. I just want to sleep 24/7 so I don't have to face my family. I feel like shit.

I layed awake imagining dozens of razor blades slicing all over my body. Oddly, this brings a smile to my face. But hey, I don't feel bad enough to cut myself with razor blades IRL. :P

I might not have to go to waterpark today. yay?

Brent-Happy 3 month anniversary, I love you...

<(-.-<) <( -.- )> (>-.-)> <------hey let's all do a depressed dance...

(*_*)

why do I feel this way. summer's supposed to be a time for fun. a time for hanging out with friends. of waterfights and park picnics and eating messy watermelon and all that jazz. kids and teens alike are supposed to be happy, no school for 3 months, get to stay up late and sleep in. go to all the hip parties going on and not have to worry about homework or teachers or lessons.

I just don't see why I feel so glum about it all. It's probably because whereas before, with school, I only had to see my family a few hours a day at most. then on weekends I would escape away with friends or coop up with homework. But now I have to spend all day at home, going on computer or reading or whatever the hell it is I have to do to keep myself busy. I have to see my family all day. even though mom'll be working soon enough, I have to watch Kyle all day and hear endless calls lecturing me.

But then during the school year I go off and get all depressed cos of school work and mounting piles of homework and etc. etc. etc.

I'm so tired of it all. I can't seem to find some sort of balance. (v_v)